Don't Call Me Pretty

I found this poem randomly today thought I would post it.

8/11/08

Don't call me pretty, you don't even call me.
You say you think I'm sexy but I think you just want me.
I don't want to want you so please don't call me baby.
If you meant what you say.
Then maybe I could let you have your way.

I dont want you to call me pretty, its just not that fun.
I feel like you've always got me on the run,
chasing after your made up games.

I'd rather not hear anything until you make my telephone ring.
Until then I can pretty much guarantee I can take care of calling me pretty.

Keep This Happiness Going

Letting go was so hard
It was the first time in my life I had to
But when I met you
I wanted to let go for the first time

Starting new with zero expectation
Discovering you were a specialization
Making my heart race without choosing
Sometimes pound because you were so damn confusing

You caught my ear, then my eye and now something deeper
Honestly, I'm very happily living each day
Continuing to grow even sweeter
How I feel leaves no area of grey

I just want to keep walking alongside my friend
Believing and knowing what we are, what we have, is what I want
We're too near the beginning to think of where we might end
But the thoughts and the feelings are not longer nonchalant

Be nice to me and hold me are my two requests
Every day I see you doing your very best
You're every type of blessing
Please don't be stressing

All I want right now is to keep this happiness going.

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Started a New Non-Profit Company

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Good Friends

After almost 3 years in LA I am finally starting feel at home here. I have a wonderful boyfriend (we've been together since the end of Sept. 08) and some amazing friends. I feel so blessed to have amazing people surrounding me. I do miss my Texas friends so much though. It is hard to say what will happen in the next year but I'm excited to see it.

Asking Me

of course
when you ask me
when you need me
that is what I will say
never wanting this feeling to go away

in six months time
some people crash together
some people smash apart
some people don't weather
some people only start

i think you know
how I feel
that it's real
vulnerable, but scared
the second feels shared

if you want me
its quite clear
that I'm here
standing, believing
supporting, not leaving

show me
is what you have done
in my mind there is none
with as magnetic of a pull
blessed, my life is so full

my prayer today

sinking down
not wanting to drown
pull me up
im looking up
grab me by the arm
grab me by the neck
i dont care how
i just need off this ground
where are you God
have you forgot
i need help
keeping myself
overwhelmed all day
please come and stay
you are my release
im falling to my knees
Lord you are it
so here i sit
waiting for you to come down
not wanting to drown